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Thursday, July 14, 2011
Allergic, seriously?
OK, so, I go in today for my 3rd IV antibiotic. The only antibiotic left I am not allergic to and guess what...... YEP, I had an allergic reaction! That was wonderful, let me tell ya! Now, I have to see an allergy Dr and have allergy desensitization done. I am not sure what it is, or how they do it, but it sounds scary!
Then on my way back from Salina after all of this, I get a message from my daughter. One of my son's friends from high school committed suicide. It is such a very sad thing. I do not understand why people feel that such a permanent solution is the only way. It honestly is so sad. I often wonder if just for one moment after they pull the trigger or however they do it, they think, man I wish I had not done this. Suicide is hard for me to accept. I loved someone who committed suicide. I don't think it will ever go away, the feelings I have from it. I have though come to accept that it was their decision. I only hope that if anyone has thoughts or feelings of suicide, they will ask for help. It leaves so many people behind hurting, and asking why. It is a pain like no other. It is not like when you lose a loved one who is ill or even in an accident. It is a feeling so different than that. It is a loss full of why's, what if's and just complete confusion. Please if anyone who is reading this ever has the thoughts of hurting themselves, call someone, anyone, but please ask for help! Suicide is not the solution!
http://suicidehotlines.com/national.html
Then on my way back from Salina after all of this, I get a message from my daughter. One of my son's friends from high school committed suicide. It is such a very sad thing. I do not understand why people feel that such a permanent solution is the only way. It honestly is so sad. I often wonder if just for one moment after they pull the trigger or however they do it, they think, man I wish I had not done this. Suicide is hard for me to accept. I loved someone who committed suicide. I don't think it will ever go away, the feelings I have from it. I have though come to accept that it was their decision. I only hope that if anyone has thoughts or feelings of suicide, they will ask for help. It leaves so many people behind hurting, and asking why. It is a pain like no other. It is not like when you lose a loved one who is ill or even in an accident. It is a feeling so different than that. It is a loss full of why's, what if's and just complete confusion. Please if anyone who is reading this ever has the thoughts of hurting themselves, call someone, anyone, but please ask for help! Suicide is not the solution!
http://suicidehotlines.com/national.html
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Oh Summer Time.....
It seems that Winter lasts forever, and Summer just flies by! This has been a very, very fast Summer so far. We haven't gotten to do much. We usually go camping quite a bit. So far this year we have only went once. It was a grand time though. DeAndre has gotten to where he is no longer afraid of the water. He does hold respect for it, but he is not afraid, and he is actually trying to swim! The same little boy that when we would go to the pool he would spend two hours getting up enough courage just to sit with his feet dangling in the water of the kiddie pool! Oh and gosh forbid if water actually splashed him in the face!
Kaitlynn, she is not afraid of anything. She takes on the world faster than it comes at her! If you want to know something, just ask Kaitlynn, because 9 times out of 10, she will know where it is, who did it, or what it was! I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing yet.
I got to talk to my cousin today, well text her. We talked about how when we was little we was like sisters. We fought one minute and played the next. So true that was. She is 2 and a half years older than me, but we grew up being around each other so much, it was pretty much like we was sisters! I did promise her though if we played cards now I promised I wouldn't cheat! LOL!
My infection is back yet again. I really thought I was done with them. It seems not so much. It really sucks. So 5 days of IV antibiotics! I really dislike this thing in my arm. What I think I dislike the most is the fact that no one can figure out why I keep getting the infections. Only thing I can figure that I have done different is I got in the lake water. I don't know if that caused it or not, but what ever is causing it needs to GO!
The heat..... now that is a topic all of it's own. Why must it be 3 digits? I mean I really hate winter, but this is way too hot! Let's have some nice days please! Ones where if we want we can actually go do things outside! I don't think that is asking too much.
I have two daughters with birthdays this month. My little Kymmie, who will be 19 on the 18th, and Kaitlynn who will be 10! Kymmie always says that Kaitie bug is hers. I remember the day I brought Kaitlynn home. She was soooooooooo tiny! A nickel would have hidden her ear it was so small. She wore little doll clothes. Kymmie looked at me and said, she is mine! She would hold her and didn't want to put her down. Kaitlynn loves Kymmie very much. She misses her a alot. We all do. It is hard, when your kids grow up, get jobs, and start living their own lives and you never get to see them. For those of you with little ones, just know it goes so fast! Before you know it, in the blink of an eye, POOF, they are grown and leaving ya. As a Mom you want them to find that independence and to grow, but there is also the side of you that wants to just scoop them up in your arms and never let them go!
Well, I guess I have rambled enough for one night. I will write more later!
Kaitlynn, she is not afraid of anything. She takes on the world faster than it comes at her! If you want to know something, just ask Kaitlynn, because 9 times out of 10, she will know where it is, who did it, or what it was! I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing yet.
I got to talk to my cousin today, well text her. We talked about how when we was little we was like sisters. We fought one minute and played the next. So true that was. She is 2 and a half years older than me, but we grew up being around each other so much, it was pretty much like we was sisters! I did promise her though if we played cards now I promised I wouldn't cheat! LOL!
My infection is back yet again. I really thought I was done with them. It seems not so much. It really sucks. So 5 days of IV antibiotics! I really dislike this thing in my arm. What I think I dislike the most is the fact that no one can figure out why I keep getting the infections. Only thing I can figure that I have done different is I got in the lake water. I don't know if that caused it or not, but what ever is causing it needs to GO!
The heat..... now that is a topic all of it's own. Why must it be 3 digits? I mean I really hate winter, but this is way too hot! Let's have some nice days please! Ones where if we want we can actually go do things outside! I don't think that is asking too much.
I have two daughters with birthdays this month. My little Kymmie, who will be 19 on the 18th, and Kaitlynn who will be 10! Kymmie always says that Kaitie bug is hers. I remember the day I brought Kaitlynn home. She was soooooooooo tiny! A nickel would have hidden her ear it was so small. She wore little doll clothes. Kymmie looked at me and said, she is mine! She would hold her and didn't want to put her down. Kaitlynn loves Kymmie very much. She misses her a alot. We all do. It is hard, when your kids grow up, get jobs, and start living their own lives and you never get to see them. For those of you with little ones, just know it goes so fast! Before you know it, in the blink of an eye, POOF, they are grown and leaving ya. As a Mom you want them to find that independence and to grow, but there is also the side of you that wants to just scoop them up in your arms and never let them go!
Well, I guess I have rambled enough for one night. I will write more later!
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Sunday's
I have never really liked Sunday's, not even when I was little. I used to get this overwhelming sad feeling every Sunday when I was growing up. I don't know if it was because I knew that I was going to have to spend the day with my step-father in the house or that I had to go to school the next day. Either way, both were horrible!
That feeling of complete overwhelming dread stayed with me into my adult years. It has just been the last few, that I can really enjoy a Sunday.
This Sunday, is me lying in bed, watching TV and blogging. I had a hysterectomy 5 weeks ago tomorrow, and I am still not 100%. I am having to deal with headaches, hormonal issues, and my right leg has hurt since I have had the surgery done. I am going to the Dr tomorrow, and I hope that maybe I can get answers as to why it is hurting so badly. I have read online that quite a few women experience leg pain after this procedure, and most of the time, they can not find out what it is. I sure hope that is not me. I did start Natural HTR yesterday. I am hoping that I do well on it.
I am wanting to make some life changes. Number 1 on the list is that I want to stop smoking. I have tried many different things, but they all seem to end with me either having a bad reaction to it, or I don't have the strength and give up. The addiction to smoking is a horrible addiction and I hope and pray that I can stop. I am looking at different exercise programs to incorporate into my life. I have degenerative disc disorder, and what several physicians have said to be Fibromyalgia. I live in constant pain, well at least I have for the last 2 years. It rather sucks. So, for right now, I am having to look for something I can do that will not hurt my neck, left arm, and lower back for exercise. I know that I am going to start walking every day. I think that is at least a beginning. I have one more week left, and then I am at my six week mark since my surgery, so I should be able to pretty much do everything "normal" again. Although, my life was not really normal before the surgery. I honestly didn't do much. My life was pretty much the same every single day. I would wake up, smoke a cig. drink some soda or coffee, and get on the computer. It felt like I honestly didn't have much going on in my life. I now want to change that and there are some big changes coming up in my life, that I know will help that. I can't tell you what they are, at least not right now. So, if you keep reading my great life adventures, you may just find out as soon as I can say!
I feel bad for Chris. He is doing laundry, and doing dishes, and cooking dinner. I am laying in bed watching TV and on the computer. My leg hurts though, and I honestly do not feel well today. I just do not want to walk on it because it is hurting so much. Not to mention I am having a headache. Plus when I take pain pills, it makes me feel woozy, and kind of nauseous, especially when I move. Chris is a very good man. I could not ask for a better person to share my life with. He treats me like a queen, and the kids are his *even if they are not biologically* You tell him that and he would tell you, in his nice polite but straight to the point way, just where to go.
So for right now, I am laying here, watching HGTV'd dreaming of all the pretty houses people are buying, hoping one day that I will have one like that too!
That feeling of complete overwhelming dread stayed with me into my adult years. It has just been the last few, that I can really enjoy a Sunday.
This Sunday, is me lying in bed, watching TV and blogging. I had a hysterectomy 5 weeks ago tomorrow, and I am still not 100%. I am having to deal with headaches, hormonal issues, and my right leg has hurt since I have had the surgery done. I am going to the Dr tomorrow, and I hope that maybe I can get answers as to why it is hurting so badly. I have read online that quite a few women experience leg pain after this procedure, and most of the time, they can not find out what it is. I sure hope that is not me. I did start Natural HTR yesterday. I am hoping that I do well on it.
I am wanting to make some life changes. Number 1 on the list is that I want to stop smoking. I have tried many different things, but they all seem to end with me either having a bad reaction to it, or I don't have the strength and give up. The addiction to smoking is a horrible addiction and I hope and pray that I can stop. I am looking at different exercise programs to incorporate into my life. I have degenerative disc disorder, and what several physicians have said to be Fibromyalgia. I live in constant pain, well at least I have for the last 2 years. It rather sucks. So, for right now, I am having to look for something I can do that will not hurt my neck, left arm, and lower back for exercise. I know that I am going to start walking every day. I think that is at least a beginning. I have one more week left, and then I am at my six week mark since my surgery, so I should be able to pretty much do everything "normal" again. Although, my life was not really normal before the surgery. I honestly didn't do much. My life was pretty much the same every single day. I would wake up, smoke a cig. drink some soda or coffee, and get on the computer. It felt like I honestly didn't have much going on in my life. I now want to change that and there are some big changes coming up in my life, that I know will help that. I can't tell you what they are, at least not right now. So, if you keep reading my great life adventures, you may just find out as soon as I can say!
I feel bad for Chris. He is doing laundry, and doing dishes, and cooking dinner. I am laying in bed watching TV and on the computer. My leg hurts though, and I honestly do not feel well today. I just do not want to walk on it because it is hurting so much. Not to mention I am having a headache. Plus when I take pain pills, it makes me feel woozy, and kind of nauseous, especially when I move. Chris is a very good man. I could not ask for a better person to share my life with. He treats me like a queen, and the kids are his *even if they are not biologically* You tell him that and he would tell you, in his nice polite but straight to the point way, just where to go.
So for right now, I am laying here, watching HGTV'd dreaming of all the pretty houses people are buying, hoping one day that I will have one like that too!
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